Fits and starts
Jun 10, 2019
2 minute read

Over the last decade or so, I’ve tried and failed to consistently blog for more than 3 or so posts in a row. Even when I manage to do that, the posts are pretty inane and often just turn up as picture galleries or some tutorial. I’ve often distracted myself with finding the perfect blog software or the perfect mechanism for deployment - all to take myself away from content creation.

All of this is a bit strange and raises a couple questions.

  • Why do I keep trying?
  • What’s stopping me from writing?

The first question is a little bit complex, so I guess I’ll start with the second question. I think I’ve been afraid because I don’t think I’m that great of a writer. Further, while I like to think about topics, I think I’ve lacked the confidence to actually write up an opinion, put it in public, and claim it as my own. To do that would require that I back up what I say (gasp).

As far as why I keep trying, if I’m being honest, I’m not entirely sure. I don’t know exactly who my audience might be. In the past, it was random stragglers off the internet looking for some arcane gotcha I wrote up about Actionscript or maybe some friends coming to check out some pictures.

Going forward, I want to give this another crack. While my audience may still include people from the two categories above, I think my primary audience is myself. As far as why I want to keep trying, here’s what I could come up with. I want to become a better writer. I want to write things down to bring some clarity to my thoughts. Most of all, I want to find the courage to lay my opinions out in public and stand by them.

My modest goal will be a post every 2 weeks or so. I’ll also put off the neverending quest to improve how the blog gets deployed, the color scheme, the theme, and how I might wire in comments (for now). Maybe I can reward myself with some new features after I reach 10 posts or so :)